Monday, December 7, 2009

NEW STUFF!!

argh! goin thro lot of terrible stuff this few days~
dunno what went wrong. Maybe my prayers i guess or god is teaching me sumthin...adeyh~
but at least there is certain of it that is still keeping me strong and thanks for that support! :D
despite all of that, i have published my photo blog!!!! weeee~
something that i've been longing to do and thanks u lord...i've established it...
i've got stuffs of mine in there and also useful stuffs for everyone! :)
but da think is dat...i haven't complete uploading all the stuffs...so bear with me yeah guys....
it's just an introduction for now :)
It is called samsarasukha wic means beautiful world in Sanskrit
because i'm an indian and proud to be so...heeeee~ so it doesn't matter if it sounds weird :p


go on and check it out guyz~
hope u like it~

http://samsarasukha.wordpress.com/

Thursday, October 22, 2009

HOW I LOOSE THAT FRIENDSHIP....

It has been a tiring day after yesterday...da mood of Diwali still haven't fade away...but i still can't resist Mafia Wars :p

I was goin through my facebook and then i remembered this old fwend of mine...sadly we are not close fwends for long...i definitely have no idea why so,maybe because of the missunderstanding we had once upon a tyme that i neva want to open it up and talked o him...maybe cos he wasnt so open about it, i have no idea. Because of something that was not worth it...we grew apart...i could remember having long talks with him and i dunno whether from him, was it genuine?

I saw his shout outs in YM! which was vry rough n sarcastic and i tend to think whether was he writing about me?deep inside me too, i thought that i might loose more fwends especially da close ones just like him...wasn't i genuine enuf?was that a mistake?how could u prefer that gal to be the better one and i'm not just because im not from the same religion??so, what he had fer me is not friendship i assume, it was just plain drama to make things fall apart.
I guess that's why god doesnt want it to go all the way till da end....

To my fwend,
i missed those days we were talking and laughing bout things that happened, i missed working with u and i missed those laughters. I have no idea whether your friendship is genuine or not but i am and that's why i guess i still miss u being my fwend. If u still think that im still da old person, i have changed.i'm following the right path now and if u think she is far more better for him, pray to da Lord to show him the right path. if u think she can do the better version of do n don't, ur wrong my fwend, trust me, it takes lots of courage to do so n i wonder if she could do it wen we see thousands of ladies in the religion cant uphold that. I hope u well my fwend and i'll pray to the Lord so that he opens up ur eye in seeing sumthing far more better den you have planned for yourself....


Monday, September 28, 2009

WHY LOVE WHEN YOU NOE IT'S AGAINST EVERYTHING AROUND U!

Exactly!why love if u noe very well that things will eventually go wrong wen it comes to things and matters all around u.why?why?why? anyone care to explain???

y love when u noe ur younger than him and u noe it's not goin to work cos his childish, y surrender urself when u noe his a big time playboy/playgirl, why love a Muslim when u noe u need to struggle on that, why love when u noe it's against the religious teaching, why love when u have already given up on it in the 1st place, why love when there isn't any connection, why why why???

isit because lust and love tries to rule everything??or isit using reasons to run away from relationship at the end of things that already happen???

i'm just so scared my history will repeat again people.am just so scared....

p/s : morning sickness = emoing
pls dun bother me :D

Sunday, September 27, 2009

WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR YOU GUYZZZ?? THIS IS NOT THE FIRST TIME DAMMIT!

Which part of the preach you here at every moment of your life that you don't get it??or isit that u try to be gud not to do it but, walah! its nature??? see, people, what i don't get it is, why do people spread rumors ere and there, things were neva even der or it was even there are spread around...i mean in what part of your religious or moral education that says, people find happiness from spreading it around? i mean, if there is, plz do let me noe! this is like the second time im hearing to it. does it make a diffreent that i'm not with your kinda people or isit that i'm with other kinda people, it hurts you so much that i'm changing???

owh ya!this is another thing that im freaking frustrated with!CHANGING!!! why can't you all just pray that people are changing fer gud!ok fine!if u think it's bad, sit and talk about it!if u think that ur good itself, sit and tell those people who are changing that it's not right. lay it down in front of them and u noe wat?it's not goin to hurt u so badly. and i'm definate that god will appreciate your doings well than you go around talking bout people. u think ur civilized by doing so, but to bad ur not! and worst part of all, backstabbers!the one that smiles and welcomes you, but they are those who do stuffs even i can neva imagine! it's true, people drift away so easily wen they are in a new environment, but all you can do is help them out!i'm thankful that i have fwends who brought me back then drifting away further

sometimes i tend to think that, are they jealous or isit happiness by spreading 'words' ? you know wat, u talk about being so religious, being faithful to what u r doing but i bet the fact is, behind all people, ur just doin plain sins that u think people won't find out. wake up people!wake up!

p/s : trying my level best to not use vulgar words on u people!

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

SALAM AIDILFITRI!!



Salam Aidilfitri to all my fwends and i hope this syawal will bring all of you prosperity and showered with happiness and good luck from Allah S.W.T
To the ones that i have ever hurt directly or indirectly or said things i'm not suppose to say, i am very sowie.
Hope u guys would enjoy the day to da fullest with your family and His blessings.

Monday, September 14, 2009

WHY FILM AND ANIMATION??AND WHY I'M LAZY???

It's 8.48 in the morning and im so deadly tired and sleepy...being up all night trying to finish up my visual effect assignment and God, it's so killing me. i wonder why i took this course in the first place. But till this very moment and second, i'm still trying to push myself to like Maya or whatever 3D thing thing...another most frustrating thing is, i'm to lazy!i wonder why this semester i'm like so so lazy....gotta buck-up bebeh! or else my dad will totally ground me! funny ryte, i'm 23 and yet i'm getting grounded....maybe in the 1st place i should have just take Media Inovation...ARGH!!!!!

p/s: crit is at 9am and huuhuuhuhuh.....

Sunday, September 13, 2009

CREATING A TREE IN MAYA AT LAST!

At last!i actually found the tutorial to create a tree in maya..pheeew! such a relief...so, for those who never took maya and is still struggling...this is for you guys...enjoy!

Creating A Paint Effects Tree - 3dtutorialzone.com

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p/s: i post it in my blog as a reminder for me :p

Friday, September 11, 2009

SEEKING THE BLESSING OF THE AL-MIGHTY



It's already the 21st night all Muslims has been waiting for and wow!9 days more to Raya...i just wanna hope my friends could get the blessings they seek from the Al-Mighty....to my friends who has been goin for the tarawih prayers every night, may god blesh you guys and the night of Lailatul Qadar that you all have been seeking for is just around the corner....hope all of you could pray for the happiness, blessing and prosperity for everyone.


Thursday, September 10, 2009

I'M FAT!!

It's 7.40 pm and it's already break fast time but im still thinking of what to eat!!!!waaa~ no no! maybe i should not eat...seriously speaking...i'm growing fatter and fatter day by day....of course ler, buka puasa and sahur eat so heavy! it does make sense dowh! but now, i wonder how to go down...owh ya! not forgetting, the amount of coke consumed this month :p..waaa~unbelievable! i keep on telling myself not to but i dunno why i keep on doing it..which means eating! argh~
my type of body, easy up and easy down but it neva stays unless i make it stay...huhuhuhuhuh....

p/s: so shleepy!!!

IS THERE SOMETHIN MORE???

It's practically 7.39 in the morning and i haven't slept since yesterday because of busy finishing up my video post production! i don't wanna sleep cos i know very well that if i did, i won't wake up for my 9am class and it's film studiez!erk!~ but den i'm sleepy cos i just finished sahur! heee~

Another part of me is missing him early in the morning! damn!How i wish misery will end as soon as i'm married! at least, his next to me and at least i can think about concentrating on something other than love! After being with Subra, i think this is my most happiest relationship..at least i could breath in this one and not sit thinking bout how to make him happy and being so self conscious...in conclusion, not so tied up! and i love him because of that trust and freedom! weee~

Raya is in about 2 weeks and same goes for the submission! i think the biggest headache will be Design Process!waaa~ wanna cry! i don' t know why im so not good in modeling! i have no problem with sketches and all, but the modeling is like...i dunno what to say! but i guess wat i had enjoy will be writing review and own interpretation about movies that i have watched and also the screen play writing. To me, that's the 2 most enjoyable thing that i have ever done! weee~

My lecturer just added me in FB and his my fav so far. But what i've discovered fer the whole night was the other options i could take up if modelling really doesn't work for me. His wife is an ex-mmu student and seriously speaking, my god!her works are like incredible especially when it comes to sketching characters and coloring it and all those different stuffs you can do...i thank god for showing me that option for sure! There is something more than just animating characters...well, the matte painting, gotta brush up on that too! So now, i've decided that i should work some stuffz out then to sit and play Mafia Wars in FB (sowie yang!i noe u love me wen i go a level higher..heee~) which i think i can use those time to polish up this skill of mine...at least, i have more option waiting fer me out there!

p/s: i need to get my shower...its 8am edy!